Requiem for a better world!

_"Vem por aqui" - dizem-me alguns com os olhos doces

Estendendo-me os braços, e seguros

De que seria bom que eu os ouvisse

Quando me dizem: _"Vem por aqui!"

Eu olho-os com olhos lassos,

(Há, nos olhos meus, ironias e cansaços)

E cruzo os braços,

E nunca vou por ali...

A minha glória é esta:

Criar desumanidades!

Não acompanhar ninguém.

(...)

A minha vida é um vendaval que se soltou,

É uma onda que se alevantou,

É um átomo a mais que se animou...

Não sei por onde vou,

Não sei para onde vou

Sei que não vou por aí!"

José Régio

(vide poema completo aqui)

Dear enemies...

All of you out there...

Yes!..

You!...

Gazing and smiling at me...

Holding and hiding back your deepest thoughts and fears against me...

This post...

Is dedicated to you all...

You right there...

Lost and lonely souls...

Come to me...

How many are you?....
All of you...
Dear, dark, fallin' angels...

I'd like to propose a toast...

A toast to life!...

As it really is...

Do come!...

I also have a gift !...

I do...

Do not fear!...

My gitf is my love...

And this love is for y'all...

My dark, yet sweet, angels...

Please let my love warm your fragile wings...

God!...

My heart's so warm, i can't almost stand this heat alone...

I'm afraid i cannot...

I'm sorry...

My heart does shine much too strong than my corrupted will ...

Much greater than my weak, weak body...

"So, children of the wilderness...
Learn to be lonely!...
Learn to find your way in darkness!..."

And do take it easy on me...
I once was there too, you know?...
When my wings melted, i kept fallin', and fallin', and fallin'...
Round, round and around...
Just like you...
You poor, sad creatures!...

This post is my gift...
And my gift this short story of mine:...

Now, keep still...
And close all of your senses...

Keep'em wide shut!

All but the ears...
Ready?...


Now, listen!...
I'll whisper slowly...
Into your ears...
It's a fresh, sweet breeze...
Do you feel it?...
There you have it, then...

Once upon a long time ago...
I happened to be a beautiful little girl...
An angel...
A very light one, as well...
You see, my wings were so strong and young, i couldn't control my flights...
And landings?...Were even worse!...
I kept doing loopings and childish stuff alike!...
And so it was funny...
My simple, yet meaningless, life...
Until this point, nothing much, i know...
'Cause, back then, my days went really easy on me...

Anyway...
Seconds, minutes, hours came by...
All of a sudden, became days, years, decades...
And all those loopings i told you about?...
Ended giving place to my first accidents...
Yep!...So it was...
Firstly, it was just a few small scratches...
But as i kept challenging my body to fly higher...
Higher than the sun itself...
Then, i became really injured...
Sun started burning my feathers...
And the more i tried to flew away from the burning fire, the toughest those flames...

Therefore, it wasn't long enough for my descendind flight...
I began to descend, abruptly!
Into deeper, winding, inner-self circles...
And the closest i got to the ground, the faster my fall...

Just couldn't take my eyes of me falling so hard on myself...
I nearly forgot the breeze, the colder water, the sunshine above my head...
Most of those times, i did also forget me!...
I forgot almost about everything, about life itself...
I even forgot 'bout all of you and the others around me...

I just couldn't seem to keep my mind off of me...
No love, no glory...
No heroes in my sky...
End of story!

Outhere, there is nothing but emptiness, you know?...
An elusive and disturbing feeling of numbness...
Nobody but yourselves...
No smiles, nor flowers...

Good Lord, i can still recall it!...
It was True Hell!!!
I was left all alone with me, myself and i...
But you know why?...
'Cause i wanted it that way...
I had decided to put my life for rent and to stand still...
Waiting for someone's charity...
However...
What i didn't know, back at that time...
Was that the price, i was asking, was way too cheap...
Cheap enough for somebody to even consider taking it...

I slowly became realizing...
I was too scared to peek outside...
I was too afraid to get hurt again...
Not again, no more injuries!...
So deeper down i went, of course...
Closest than ever to my darkest me...
A huge monster i then became...
In my mind, i created an underworld...
A kingdom of darkness...
Of sorrow for myself!...
Nobody could see me, nor hear me...
Not even me...

As the end was inevitably near, i decided to quit first...
Damned me!...
But it was my only wait out!...
I did start, though, by throwing away each of my mirrors...
All, but three...the heaviest:
My family, my friends, my inner love and strenght...

Those three kept mirroring myself falling!..
And those were what kept my body alive...
My soul was long gone...never thought i'd find it again!...

I didn't have wings, at that time, so i walked in bare feet...
Yet i wasn't alone...
Not anymore...
Those mirrors helped me pushing away, both the pain and my darkest clouds...

Thank God i couldn't throw them away!...
But now they're much lighter, ya know?
I always keep them in my pocket, no matter what...
Wherever i go...

Now, it's that one last and hardest effort...
I feel i'm almost there...yet i do see a few clouds now and then...

Wait!...
There's the rainbow!...
I can feel it with my eyes still closed...
Wait one sec more!...
I'm longing for that one wish...
My own...
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Cannot!...
Is it?
Dear God...it's true!...
I just can't believe my eyes right now...
They're wide open, together with the rest of my other four senses!...
And, up high, the sun is already shining down on me...
Under my skin...
Once more!...
Down deep i knew it always did, yet my pupil was in denial!...

And so it is indeed, dear all, angels of light...
The sun does shine behind any stormy sky!...
It does!...
I see it all the times, even when it rains!...

So, do accept this tribute...
I do long this same, bright, new light for you...
My dearest angels of dark silence...
And there's that one thing, i can tell you for sure right now:
Outhere, in the Wild, there are way too many arms...
Waiting, wide open for you to hold...
Do learn to let them ...

Keep believing in you, even when nobody does...
Learn how to love life that is lived alone...
This life's too brief to feed hatress...
Yet longer enough to let our bodies breathe outside happy and free...

Believe me...
Life can be lived and loved alone...
Please, do listen to me!...
And do not be afraid...
Death is only near while our bodies are still alive...
Our soul, though, is eternal...

Let all of your spirits fly high and free!...
Free to riding this ray of light along with me...
And it's a free ride!...


Allow the shine in those eyes to enlighten all those days of yours, left to come...
Stronger and warmer than ever before!...

And remember...
All together...
We've got plenty of sun to brighten up a rainy day!...

Let us, then...
Here and now...
Open our smiling windows...
And breathe in...
Let us inhale that nice, old, good feeling...
We all, once in a while, almost forget...

Now...
And for ever...
And ever...
Always!...

(texto de inspiração lenta e sentida, pensado no dia 18.03.07, dia em que o sol voltou a brilhar, primeiro dia do resto da minha vida!)